deleted, rewritten and tucked away
I read our silence like a Hemingway
there is no need for us to act this way
cold shoulders given to cold shoulders
till reversed and those shoulders
embrace shoulders
till we are simple safe soldiers
I tried to run
but only tears came out
as I tried to fill my gas tank with them
I cranked the engine [...]

I have been called tragic
though I often thought of my self
as lethargic and spastic
an optimistic pessimist
currently caught in convulsions
I emerge as a purge
with weeks of words
swelled up trying to figure out
What kind of Poet I am?
What kind of poem are you?
Do you dream all day of a better place
where it is all smiles
flowers and rainbows
or [...]

A blue bird landed in the gutter
above my head
it wasn’t always there
it landed while i was outside
smoking
and when I put out the cigarette
the bird was still perched
looking at me
from the storm drain
while i was looking at it
it brought back memories
about how important
blue birds have been
like the time outside of Texas
where a blue bird
was perched outside
of [...]

I am sick of making excuses
and sifting threw heart break
to find a story or substance
I used to live dangerous
Now I am a mouse
in a house
that barely makes a peep
I am here to sleep
but find myself awake
with a spaghetti strainer
removing memories
sifting threw the rubbish
becoming perfect strangers
and the strange thing about it
It’s as if i was [...]

Its bare on my chest
exposed with emotions
I make words
take flesh
and march on
they stand proud and invisible
like thoughts
and as sinister as sycophants
your in my whirlwind
and its time i take you in
to seek shelter from the storm
to be dry and warm
like a good martini
and sometimes we get three chances
and sometimes it only two
I make corrections
on my imperfections
and [...]

At a standstill
its gridlock
sitting between the trigger
of two revolvers
and a silent auction
this involves all of us
so instead of standing still
lets stand up
in defiance and with action
my voice is a pebble
on miles of highway
having been rode over
and passed for many miles
at speeds to fast to say
slow down
our crowns are tainted bronze
with crimson
as dialog gives way
to distance
and [...]

No one sees inside the dynamic escapade
the resides behind my eye’s
inside intolerable pain
swirling with disappointment
in a flood of waves
rolling over
diminishing hope
sadness seeps into the silt
and its built to spill
happiness is an illusion
bought from black market chemists
the best of us
turn out to be the worst
and what was once white
turns black
as hearts
and art suffers
as the [...]

This world doesn’t hold much for me
besides the boredom and the composting of dead leaves
and the bugs and weeds between
as children, we would jump into big piles
as adults we sweep them up
and sometimes burn them
when the smoke signals rise
and only time
or water puts out the smolder
These are only dreams
from when I was jumping
in [...]